Reality Check

Being unemployed sucks.

Sure the first week was awesome. I got to sleep in past 5am and actually had the chance to enjoy a nice cup of coffee instead of chugging it while running out the door. My days were spent at The Kookaburra job searching and feeling confident that my dream job was just going to magically appear (spoiler: it didn’t). And sure I enjoyed nights out with friends and enjoying a nice vodka tonic without having to worry about being up early the next morning.

Life was good but then on the second week of unemployment reality and boredom hit.

I grew weary of searching for jobs so I instead sat around watching Friends all day (bad idea btw). I was basically doing nothing which left me thinking that being impulsive and quitting the bakery was a bad idea. Family members and friends reassured me that I had made the right choice and that the dark rainy cloud that hung over my head known as unemployment was only temporary. Deep down inside (and I do mean really deep) I know that they are right.

The truth is there are many people just like me who spend their days searching for jobs. There are many people who go on interviews and get rejected. Many people who sit around and feel useless because they have nothing to do all day.

I know all this to be true but it doesn’t make it any easier.

In college I was constantly submerged into my field doing what I love. Whether I was shooting and editing a cooking video for a friend or being DJ Caitie on my college’s radio station, I was doing what I loved. Sure at the time I complained but now I miss doing what I am passionate about.

I get excited when my phone dings with an email containing a blog post from a friend whose blog I designed and currently manage. For five minutes once a week I get to do what I love but that’s not enough.

I want to wake up, put on a cute outfit and drink some coffee while driving to the job I love.

But that’s not my reality right now. My job right now is to find a job.

So what’s a girl to do?

Well every morning this girl tries (some days I honestly don’t feel like it) to wake up, goes for a run, drinks coffee, puts on a cute outfit, pulls out her laptop and beings to look for a job.